Sunday, January 11, 2015

Follow-Up on "Food Abuse" Post

I would like to update my thoughts on food for y'all because they are changing. 

My doctor is blessed to be proficient in a miraculous, energy-releasing process called APN (it's not like me to overlook abbreviations, but I don't know this one--silly Lyme brain:). APN is a process wherein the practitioner guides the patient to release negative energy, darkness, density, pain, emotions from memories or perceptions--anything not helping the body--without making the person completely live through it again. Those negative energies repressed can get dense and dark and manifest as symptoms, so the idea is to get 'em outta there so the person can be in a state that invites healing. The person is invited to take in love and light with all their healing properties. You love the bad-ness away; this is the Atonement in action, people, and guided by a very worthy vessel in my doctor. Muscle testing is involved to narrow down to the age and pressing issue the body wants to address. It is immensely insightful, and I feel my burden is lifted or lightened or loved or appreciated better afterward. 

The day after I wrote that "Food Abuse" post, I did APN to help me with food. Desperate times. In the course of my treatment, I learned a lot and was subconsciously healed enough to start progressing towards trying to love food. 

This is what I think of food in relation to my body now. 

First of all, I think my doctor sensed that I was hangry (angry from hunger, doncha know). Starving people can develop eating disorder-like tendencies--look it up. I think maybe I had a smidge of something like orthorexia nervosa, which is an obsession with eating only pure foods. I wasn't a strictly organic, non-GMO, milking my own grass-fed sheep kind of orthorexia nervosa. But I did know every ingredient of everything I ate, and I was quick to refuse anything that went against my stricter-than-Paleo diet. (I say stricter because I excluded tomatoes, peppers, citrus, pineapple, and other items that should be ok with Paleo but were causing me mas problemas.)

I told my doctor this was an urgent problem. I was never full, I was losing extreme amounts of weight, and I was just mad at food. It alarmed me. 

My doctor asked about my carb intake. There isn't much of that when you remove grains, legumes, and sugars from your diet; I was getting carbs from fruits, vegetables, and nuts. 

My doctor instructed me to start alternating eating brown rice, quinoa, or beans once every day: to feel full and satisfied, to get carbs, to branch out and get my body to trust food again, and to take baby steps toward more functional eating. My body struggles with leftovers of any of those things (ie to eat one of them two days in a row), but handles them well with first exposure, I've found. And I feel full afterwards!

"Heck yes! I will do that!" I thought. 

I have not done it every day because I forget to soak things and we have been given some meals too (THANK YOU--YOU ARE ANGELS!!!). But when I have tried it, I have done so well. 

This is how it goes down. 

The brown rice or quinoa must be soaked for several hours, then drained and cooked from there. Soaking releases the lectins or whatever--the inherent, micro-sized poisons in grains that keeps birds away and cause inflammation in super sensitive people (lika me--thank you Lyme).  

The beans must be soaked at least overnight. Then here's the trick. 

HEY EVERYBODY!!! Ima talk about GAS!!!!

Here is the secret to GAS-FREE BEANS!

Soak overnight. Drain the water and cover with new water. Add one teaspoon to one tablespoon of BAKING SODA to the pot. Bring to a boil and boil one to two minutes. Drain the water. Add new water, and cook as usual. 

It works, people. 

The nugget of this narrative is that poco a poco (little by little) applies to food for me as well. APN teaches my body to trust food again. I then consciously ask a blessing on my food from my Heavenly Father. He is Omnipotent, Magnanimous, and He cares about me and my belly and the good food I put into it. 

I tell my body we are going to do this together. I will defend it and be careful with it, but it is time to challenge it just a little bit. I tell my body that I am being gentle with it, but we are going to enjoy some food together that was prepared with love and blessed by Heaven. I tell my body that the food will break down into components that will help my body and soul heal and thrive! I tell my body it can trust me to take care of it, that I will be kind to it and listen, and that I love it enough to give it variety and help it trust and grow again. And I reassure my body that if I ever make an unforeseeable mistake, it just means we are learning together and to slow things down a bit. And if I put my guts in great distress, I have medicine I can give it to make things better again. 

I give my body an occasional, compassionate pep talk. "It's okay body. I love you. I was excited for eons of time to have you and cherish you and be in you, and I will love and care for you in every condition. I teach you, and you teach me. I am listening to you now. I will try to always be kind to you by eating well, sleeping well, not committing to too much stress, and someday we'll even dance and stretch and run again! Poco a poco, we'll get there together. I will always love you and will try to always listen to you so you get negative energy out before it turns toxic and dense. I will invite the loving, healing, burning light of Christ into you every day through my daily devotions of prayer and scripture study. You are loved and matter to me, and I'm excited to learn how we work together in this life and to have you through the eternities!!!"

Oh, how we need love and light in every cell, for healing, for peace, for enduring to the end! Jesus Christ separated the Light from the darkness for us, and His Light casts it out completely in our own bodies. The intelligences in each of our cells can accept His love and become TRILLIONS of points of Light in our bodies. We are glorious in this life to the degree that we allow ourselves to receive that love and light. 

It is possible to grow in light every day, and to heal and be made whole by degrees every day too. 

"That which is of God is light; and he that receiveth light, and continueth in God, receiveth more light; and that light groweth brighter and brighter until the perfect day" (Doctrine & Covenants 50:24). 

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