I. Am. So. Tired. All. The. Time.

This is me in the hyperbaric oxygen chamber--soooooo tired, as usual, but not able to sleep, as usual. This no-sleep thing I've had for five years is exhausting. It's worse than immediately after giving birth when you're just SO spent, and you're up all night for two weeks straight; it's worse than any sleep deprivation or exhaustion I've ever had. It has worsened over five years. It's hard to move, to lift my arms, to get around. My bones and muscles ask for mercy when I'm up, but sometimes I overexert out of sheer rebellion to my tiredness, but I pay for it. 

I am always so tired--fatigued, mentally exhausted, tired in my tissues and bones. 

All. The. Time.