You've been looking forward to it.
You thought it would never come.
You've been hoping for it.
You can't wait for it—
And suddenly it's upon you.
Like starting at a new school,
Making a big purchase that you have been saving for,
Zipping up your bag the night before a trip,
Walking into a hair salon for a big chop,
Driving in to sign the mortgage papers,
Or deliver a baby.
The excited butterflies you've had since forever
Feel more like a bellyache
And you kind of frown inside.
Because, don't you feel a bit of…DREAD?
Like, am I ready?
Am I sure about this?
Have I thought this through?
Do I really want to go through with this?
It was the right thing then, and then, and then—
Is it the right thing NOW?
Wait—it HAS to be.
And by gum, I have to be stubborn about this and
DO IT.
Like I decided,
Then, and then, and then.
I've got this.
I was born ready.
It's time.
Bring it.
Hit me.
Probably?
Just, drive around the block.
Ok, let's go.
Wait! Just two seconds.
Great. I'm cool.
HANG ON!
I had the power. Now I'm just not—
Wait, what?
I'm done?
It's over?
Heh, good thing I didn't freak out or anything.
That would have been aaawkward.
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