Imminent Change

You know that feeling you get before an exciting change?

 

You've been looking forward to it.

You thought it would never come.

You've been hoping for it.

You can't wait for it—

And suddenly it's upon you.

 

Like starting at a new school,

Making a big purchase that you have been saving for,

Zipping up your bag the night before a trip,

Walking into a hair salon for a big chop,

Driving in to sign the mortgage papers,

Or deliver a baby.

 

The excited butterflies you've had since forever

Feel more like a bellyache

And you kind of frown inside.

 

Because, don't you feel a bit of…DREAD?

Like, am I ready?

Am I sure about this?

Have I thought this through?

Do I really want to go through with this?

It was the right thing then, and then, and then—

Is it the right thing NOW?

 

Wait—it HAS to be.

And by gum, I have to be stubborn about this and

DO IT.

Like I decided,

Then, and then, and then.

 

I've got this.

I was born ready.

It's time.

Bring it.

Hit me.

 

Probably?

Just, drive around the block.

Ok, let's go.

Wait! Just two seconds.

Great. I'm cool.

HANG ON!

I had the power. Now I'm just not—

 

Wait, what?

I'm done?

It's over?

Heh, good thing I didn't freak out or anything.

That would have been aaawkward.